This, like something else, is something you must do on your own.

Sorry, you've lost me: “like *what* else”?

But yeah, Zen is something each Zen student ultimately learns for themself: the teacher can only show the way.

ETA: And if Zen isn't your thing, that's totally cool. I'm not trying to convert anyone by making these blog posts. I'm just blogging about my experience, since that's what web logs pretty much started out as: online journaling.